CPA Exam

I was talking to my boss on Friday and the the topic of the CPA certification came up.  He was talking about preparing for it and how much it would help his career to make that step.  I feel like my boss and I have had a very similar career path and education level.  This conversation put this idea back into my head.

I have considered working toward the CPA certification in the past but I have always dismissed this idea.  Most of my verbalized dismissals are excuses that stem from my internal doubts.  I have always worried that I wasn't smart enough to pass the test.  I have had people tell me that they think I am smart enough but that still doesn't shut up the internal mean voice in my head that tells me that I am not.  I worry about failing.    It is almost as if I don't want to try because I don't want to fail.  As I was writing that sentence I realized how insane it sounded, except that still doesn't make me feel any different.

If I can get past the self doubts of failing then I encounter the discipline problem.  I have always had an easy time in school and most of the time I didn't need to study. I could just show up for class, pay attention and listen and I would do decently on my exams.  However, I don't think I could just walk into the CPA exam and pass.  I know it is going to take daily discipline to study and learn this material.  It has been a very long time since I have studied most of the material that will be covered and I am not really sure I digested it the first time.  Also, I don't use most of this material in my job so it is never being reinforced in my brain.

The main reason for partaking in this challenge is for more and better career opportunities.  As many of you know I feel like my current job is slowly sucking the life out of me.  This has to stop, but I am not sure that I have the required experience and skills necessary to make the next big leap in my career.  I am sure if I become a CPA, doors will open for me that remain closed today.

Upon discussing this idea with a friend yesterday she asked me if I thought that was the kind of job I wanted.  Hmmm...that was a very good question.  Do I want a job that will require more of my time?  I think not.  But the rewards for more of my time and additional responsibility is more money.  It is quite a conundrum.

So I guess I am looking for some positive encouragement.  I want you to tell me I am smart enough and be sincere enough that I might actually believe you.  But, how am I going to fix the discipline problem?  I mean it isn't as if it is going to be fun.  It is nothing like playing Rock Band or Oblivion.

Why I am Happy Today

Hi little blog, I have missed you.  I have been bitten with a bit of apathy and writers block for the last several weeks and I feel like I am coming out of it today.  I thought I would tell you some of the things that are making me happy.  BTW...these are in no particular order.
1.  No roommate when I arrived home.  Woot...some much needed alone time.
2.  I made a delicious dinner tonight and everything was cooked properly.  Sweet Italian Turkey Sausage on a bun with grilled onions and peppers...very delightful! 
3.  I had a fun and silly debate with a friend today.  I feel that has been lacking in my life lately, look for more of this behavior in the future.  BTW...I do think you need to wear a helmet when rollerblading.
4.  I got another achievement on Oblivion tonight and I feel like I am making some good progression in the game.  What is Oblivion you say...it is a RPG game for my new to me XBox 360.
5.  While I was eating my packed lunch, I finished reading "The Man in the High Castle".
6.  Cute kitty Sparks is cuddling with me on the couch.
7.  I can see the end of winter.  I know it must be it's last leg.
8.  I am enjoying some exciting events in the Winter Olympics.    Shaun White flies so high!
9. I have recently discovered some new to me bands that have been dominating my IPod play.  So Cow has a nice rough sound and Cold War Kids give me much to think about.
10.  Of course I cannot forget Waffles and Rock Band!