July 31, 2009

Workplace Woe's

I have been having a hard time at work lately. It has not been making me happy and the emotion that it really resembles is misery. One of my friends told me recently that she can tell that work is making me unhappy because all of our email and text correspondence during the day is very abrupt and terse. This usually doesn't happen when I am at home in the evenings and relaxed.

Yesterday, I was at work and not feeling well. My allegories were bothering me and I didn’t want to eat my lunch. GASP….I always want to eat. I ended up eating about 500 calories all day until 6:00pm. This was hardly anything considering I usually consume 1000-1200 calories before dinner. I walked around the office all afternoon like an old lady. I walked slow and I was not interested in getting up to talk to co-workers or even get my printouts. I usually relish my chances to get up and away from my desk. A co-worker was worried about me at lunch because she said that I resembled a zombie. I just sat there staring out into space.

I had personal training scheduled for 4:45 and I was so tired and not interested in going. I told Hadley when I arrived that I was very tired and had extremely low energy. But you know what? That workout really perked me up. I was able to do most of the things that she requested and I got through my workout so quickly that I was able to do extra reps. I was amazed at the turnaround in how I was feeling.

I then drove downtown to see a play with GH and we were talking about that and all of a sudden I realized that all of my low energy feelings were mental. It was an epiphany. My body was fine…I just haven’t been happy at work. I find it interesting how my negative feelings can manifest themselves into physical ailments. I am glad I came to understand these feeling quickly and I can work on improving my attitude. This might not make me more happy at work but it could help me feel better while I am there.

I love that a bit of exercise and some time spent with a good friend can help improve my disposition so much. Just being around people that I like allows the negative emotions to flow away. So Thank You my friends for having this wonderful effect on me.

July 23, 2009

I'm in Love....


....with my new bike!



I purchased a beautiful new bike last weekend. It is gorgeous! It is manufactured by Giant and is a Sedona DX. It is silver and has 21 gears. I purchased it from a small independent shop near 21st St. and MLK called The Bicycle Hospital. It is run by a old hippy who loves bikes and is extremely knowledgeable. Moorewrites encouraged me go visit the establishment last week when she know I was serious about making a new purchase.


We took a long lunch last Friday and visited their small shop. I looked around while I waited my turn and there was bikes everywhere. Every time I go into a bike shop I am overwhelmed by the large quantity of choices. When the owner came over I told him what I was looking for and he immediately pointed to this bike. He said it was the #1 best selling bike the last six years. I took a test drive and he gave me instructions for 10 minutes on how to get on and off of the bike as well as how to use the gears. Off I went down this little hill and into a neighborhood. I came back a few minutes later and I was able to downshift and get up the small easily. I was sold!


I asked the guy about the differences in this bike and others I had looked at. Specifically why this bike had larger tires and many of the other Hybrid bikes have smaller 700 cc tires. He looked at me and said that those people had no business putting me on a bike like that unless they are looking for tire repair sales. I was a bit surprised by his bluntness but I appreciated his candor. I would rather someone tell me that I was too large for a bike than sell me something that is not a good fit.


I decided she was going to be my new bike and I handed over my two credit cards and ponied up the money. That is right, I split the cost. I paid for part of it with cash and the remaining part on my credit card. Take a deep breath here...she cost $520. This probably wasn't in my budget but I really NEEDED a new bike with gears.


I initiated her last Sunday afternoon. I took a ride on the Tow path with Ems and Lou and we headed south to downtown. When we hit the car dealership on 10th Street it started to rain. We headed past IUPUI in search of shelter and found it at a Qdoba. We had a meal and the rain started to clear out. As we walked outside it started to pour down rain again. We stood outside for a few minutes and then headed into Au Bon Pain for a dessert in hopes that the rain would stop soon. An hour later it was still raining hard. It just wasn't our day.


Ems tried to call two people for rides home and she was denied. So I made the decision that we were just going to have to ride back in the rain. I encouraged everyone out and on to their bikes. Somehow, I got in the lead and I started down the road with no idea of where I was going. Soon it became apparent that we were headed in the wrong direction so Lou took over and viola he found the path. All of a sudden he became Drill Sargent Lou and was demanding that we ride fast to our destination. I wasn't overly concerned because I was already soaked.


Riding on the sidewalk and White River path was fine but then we hit the Tow path and things went downhill. Do you know that the Tow path is made up of dirt? Do you know what happens when you mix water and dirt? You get mud. As in we were all covered in mud. We have some photos but I am not allowed to show them. It was all over my but, back and legs. We were dirty people and my brothers only concern was that we were not going to be allowed into his precious BMW in our current state.


We drudged back in the mud, and let me tell you it is much harder to ride in the mud than it is on the paved path. I don't necessarily recommend it. Ems lives about 20 blocks closer than where we parked our cars so she offered to drive us back to our cars. I do not like quiting what I start but I happily took her up on her offer. She also offered us towels for the car so I know there was no way Lou was going to let me reject her offer.


Some time later we were all settled and I arrived home. The first thing that I did was give my beautiful new bike a bath and a shine. However, she doesn't look new anymore. But, she gave me an excellent first ride.


Today I met some friends to go biking at Crown Hill Cemetery and I was excited to try her out on some hills and specifically Riley hill. I didn't make it to the top! I was so disappointed in myself. I made it much further than I have on any previous attempt but my heart rate was at 180 and I could no longer breath. I WILL beat that hill by the end of the summer. I did make it up the hill near the entrance twice and that was a first for me. I love that my new bike has allowed me to do things that I have never done before.


I have absolutely NO buyers remorse on this purchase. I am so glad that I bought this bike so I would have plenty of time to enjoy her this summer.

July 22, 2009

For Your Reading Pleasure

An executive at my office sent this email to everyone in the company today:

On this rainy, gloomy summer’s day we all wish we were at home, curled up on the couch, listening to rain drops on the roof while reading a good book or magazine. Alas, such is not to be the case today.

However, kind souls do bring magazines into the cafĂ© for everyone’s reading pleasure. Please do not remove them or take one with you if you happen to need to visit the loo. This will help keep the stock up and as clean as possible.

Thanking you in advance, I remain,

OCC



I about fell out of my chair laughing as I read this email today. Is this a problem we really need to address in the workplace? I have NEVER seen a magazine or any other reading material in the ladies bathroom. What do those men do?

July 20, 2009

The Bachelorette

I will admit it....I have been watching the Bachelorette this season. I have never watched any of the other seasons but I was sucked in due to a friend having a friend on the show. I am not sure how that involved me but I found myself DVR'ing the show and actually watching it. I have enjoyed seeing how she has been making her choices each week and how she controls so many boys/men.

I watched last weeks episode last night and I found myself judging her for sleeping with two of the three remaining men and attempting it with the third. I felt like I fell back into my conservative upbringing where having unmarried sex is wrong. It would be especially wrong to have sex with more than one man at a time. I was surprised by this immediate judgement of her being a slut, in my head.

The thing is, I really don't care after I thought about it. I think that a women is entitled to have as many partners as she wants and is comfortable with. She shouldn't be judged by others. After all, it is her personal life not mine. However, the Bachelorette does air all of her business on TV and therefore, lends herself to being judged.

So I take it back. I am no longer judging her. Why is it so easy to fall into that trap?

I also find it interesting that this is acceptable TV at 8pm. Again, I am not offended by what is on TV or what time it starts because I know how to use the off button when I am offended or even more likely, just not interested. I was surprised that they showed her going into the private room in the evening with each of the three men. This was on ABC which is supposed to be the most family friendly network.

So way to go Jillian for trying out the three guys. How else could she decide the right man to marry?

July 19, 2009

Nutrition

Weekly Update

I lost 2.2 pounds this week.


Monday

1900 Calories

Personal Training for 45 Minutes
I don't think that I turned on my heart rate monitor for this work out.

Bike Ride for 44 Minutes
306 Calories Burned
Heart Rate Zone 20 Minutes

Tuesday

1804 Calories

Wednesday

2615 Calories
I ate at Outback steakhouse for dinner and had a steak, bread, vegetables and cheese fries. I also had one of their small desserts. Peanut butter pie...YUM.

Thursday

1898

Walking 45 minutes at Lunch
Burned 396 Calories
Heart Rate Zone 20 Minutes

Biking for 1 Hour and 24 Minutes
Burned 745 Calories
Heart Rate Zone 20 Minutes

Friday

2155 Calories

Saturday

I did not count on this day. I went to Chicago and I ate out every meal.

Sunday

I am currently at 1300 calories and I will most likely eat another small meal.

Bike Riding in the rain and mud
Duration: 3 hours 19 minutes
1227 Calories Burned
Heart Rate Zone 30 Minutes
I think that I could have worked harder on this ride.

July 15, 2009

Tupperware Party

Do you ever find yourself in a situation that you just don't fit in? I don't think that happens to me very often, but when it happens, large green neon lights appear.

I was invited to a Tupperware party a couple weeks ago by a friend that I used to work with. She stopped working when she had her baby last year. Do you see the problem. I arrived at her party about 30 minutes late due to a delay at work, so things were underway when I arrived. I helped myself to a plate of food and sat on the couch to visit. I didn't know anyone at the party so I knew that I needed to be extra extroverted and make friends quickly. Most of the people at the party knew each other and had a basis for conversation with each other, so I sat and listened to them while I was eating. It soon became clear to me that I was missing an important factor in my life to fit in with the group. Children!

The conversation often centered around them. What they were doing, what they were wearing, what they were eating and how they were going to use the Tupperware products. I couldn't find a connection with anyone. They were all perfectly nice and friendly but I seemed unable to have a conversation. How unusual for me. I feel like I can talk to anyone and usually find something of common interest.

Everyone eventually left as I was finishing up my order and I don't think that I had a conversation with anyone except for the friend who invited me over. I am glad that I was invited and I got what I needed but it was an bizarre experience.

July 12, 2009

Nutrition

Weekly nutrition update!

I feel that I did better this week and I was more in control of my food. I just bought a new digital scale at BB&B tonight so I will also include those weekly stats.

Weight Loss

I weighed myself last Wednesday at work and the difference between last Wednesdays and today's weight is 4 pounds, but it is a different scale and a different time of the day. I will start weighing myself on Sunday mornings to make it more consistent. BTW the term morning is variable for me because it meant 11:45 today. I had to rush to get ready for my biking adventure.

Monday 07/06

I didn't track my calories on Monday and most of the day was OK, but dinner included Papa Johns' pizza.

Tuesday 07/07

2440

Calories Burned
293 Mowing Lawn 36 Minutes
840 Biking 1 hour 43 minutes

Total 1133

Wednesday 07/08

1980 Calories

Calories Burned
290 Bike Ride
I didn't track but I took a 45 minute brisk walk at lunch.

Thursday 07/09

2115 Calories

Friday 07/10

1964 Calories
I ate out Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner and snack. I was very happy to stay within my daily calories. I did have two vodkas and diet Cokes and I am not sure how many calories that included.

Saturday 07/11

I didn't track my calories for the day but it included a 10 inch Bazbeaux Pizza and a Tagalong blizzard from DQ.

Sunday 07/12

I am at 1100 calories but I still need to eat dinner. I am sure I will stay within my range.

Calories Burned

1741
3 hour bike ride
I was in my heart rate zone for 1 hour 52 minutes.
Max HR was 203 and the average was 149.

The lady at the gym said that the heart rate monitors have a accuracy rating of + or - 10%. So I either burned 174 more or less. But either way I feel like I kicked ass today. It was definitely a good bike ride. I only exercised three days last week and I would like to fit in one more day next week. I just need to add it to my socializing schedule.

Walking

Part of the wellness challenge at work involves a weekly walk on Wednesday's during my lunch hour. This walk usually lasts about 30 minutes. I am trying to become a regular member of this group but I sometimes forget or get busy or just don't want to do it.

The thing is that I really don't like to walk. I cannot explain how I like to ride my bike for 20 or 30 miles, but the thought of walking a mile exhausts me. It is a conundrum. There were only three of us that participated in the walk this week. This included to guys, one of whom is very tiny and runs five or more miles several times per week. He is extremely athletic and fast. The other guy is almost seven foot tall and his legs never end. I am friends with both of these guys but I didn't think that I could keep up so I took my IPOD to entertain me.

I surprised myself by keeping up with them. I was walking a a pretty fast clip for me and I think that they were walking at their normal walking pace. I felt good that I could even keep up with that. Next week I am supposed to lead this walk and I hope that they don't expect me to walk up front.

On a side note of walking I have been having these weird reoccurring dreams/daydream that I am running down the street. No one is chasing me, I am just running for fun and exercise. I find this to be very odd considering that I don't even really like to walk. This has been happening for the last two weeks or so. I told this story to some friends and acquaintance on Friday night just for some fun and laughs. Someone tried to give me the deep meaning behind my dreams. She asked me if I have a goal that I am working towards. I said yes, to not be fat anymore. She thought it meant that I was running toward this goal.

I guess I can either think that or that I am going to become a runner sometime in my future. I would guess that it is the goal thing.

July 8, 2009

Perception

I had an interesting conversation with Gwen (ex-sister-in-law) on July 4th while we were watching a fantastic display of private fireworks. We were talking and all of a sudden she brought up how different Lou and I are here in Indianapolis and how "well off we are". I was confused because I don't consider either of us well off. She was talking about how Lou's children get everything that they want. I stuck up for my tight A** brother and told her of the collection of parents that I know, Lou buys the least amount of stuff for his children and he rarely indulges them in out of the blue presents.

She disagreed with me and stated how when we were at Connor Prairie on Friday he bought the kids a ton of stuff. I was flabbergasted at this idea. My perception of the events at Conner Prairie were very different. Lou has a season family pass and it includes free entrance for two extra people. This allowed his entire family, me and two of Gwen's family free entrance to the park. She only had to pay one $12 admission because one of her children chose to stay at Lou's house and play the Wii all day. I thought this was a very cheap and economical way to spend the afternoon. BTW...my brother gave me crap because I wanted to use on the free admissions on me and not give it to Gwen. I figured I was the closer family member as well as the host to the entire weekend I was entitled to the free entrance.

While we were walking through the settlements the kids were whining that they wanted ice cream and popcorn and pop. He didn't indulge these ideas and utilized the drinking fountains for beverages. Then as we were exiting they went through the gift shop and used their allowance money to purchase some candy. I would say that they each spent about a dollar.

I find it fascinating how two people can have such different perceptions of a days events. I guess it is all about where you are coming from.

July 6, 2009

Nutrition

This is my weekly nutrition update.

Monday 06/29
2228 Calories

Tuesday 06/30
2206

Wednesday 07/01/09
2791
A midnight snack of a peanut butter sandwich and a pudding took me way over the edge. I guess there was chips and ice cream too.

Thursday
2500
Ate a half order of Nachos at a Mexican restaurant. I estimated 1400 calories but I really just don't know. The rest of the day was good.

Friday-Sunday
There is no more journal and it wasn't pretty. I guess the stress of having my relatives at my house and the holiday goodies got to me. I think there was pizza delivered to my house on Sunday night. I received a coupon from Papa Johns for a free large two topping pizza. I guess they were worried about me because it had been so long since I had ordered a pizza. I let them know I was OK. So I finished off the remaining three pieces for dinner on Monday night, but i was much more in control of myself today. Also, I purchased a heart rate monitor today so I will be able to update you on my calories burned through exercise.


This week I will need to watch the eating out. I have plans for a movie and ice cream outing on Wednesday. I will plan for a low calorie dinner to allocate enough calories for ice cream. I also have plans for PF Changes on Friday night and I will check out their website for the healthiest option. There also might be beer on Friday night.

This week will be a challenge but I am back on track for my food journal.

July 3, 2009

Biking Adventure

I have been reading two blogs recently and they have significantly increased my need for adventure. The first one is about Roz Savage and her adventures rowing her boat across the Pacific Ocean. I find this a scary and fascinating idea. I am willing to try most thing and I often throw caution out when I think of a great idea, but in none of my fantasies can I imagine traveling across the Pacific ocean in a row boat. It seems ludicrous! But I keep reading with fascination.

The second blogger is Ryan and he writes about running across Europe from Amsterdam to Athens. This is certainly an adventure that I could get into except that I really DON'T like to run! I really hardly like to walk places. But, biking is my passion.

Reading about these two people has made me wonder what kind of biking adventure I could have. As much as I enjoy riding about Indianapolis, I wonder where else I could ride. Could I plan a vacation to ride somewhere? Where could I go? Should I drive somewhere and then trek about? Should I pack everything that I would need on my bike and just go?

I would like to explore this idea more. Wouldn't it be awesome to take my new bike (I know....I know...I need to buy a new bike) on a trip across Europe next summer. What could I realistic afford? Could my body handle such a trip? How would I plan such a trip. Most importantly, who wants to go with me?

Tell me your thoughts on this idea.

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